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Hi all,

Wow life is busy busy busy at the moment so don’t have enough time to blog daily which irritates me so I’m a happy bunny tonight as I get to sit down and write about what’s going on in my life.

Firstly I sing in a choir that raise money for a local Cancer hospital called The Christie that provides world-leading treatment to cancer sufferers. It is a cause close to my heart because they cured my Nana of bowel cancer, they helped treat my pop when he was suffering with bladder cancer (albeit unsuccessfully as it had spread) and they also cared for my beautiful Aunty Rose until the day she passed away. So far we have managed to raise £20,000 in a year for the cause. We recently auditioned for a show called Britain’s Got Talent and have got through to the next round so we are constantly preparing for that which takes up a lot of my evenings. The prize is £100,000 which will mean a lot to the hospital and go a long way to funding a new treatment centre.

I have been swimming a lot in the past few weeks, although I accept I am not going to be stick thin by the next round of filming in early February I am looking forward to being a little trimmer and healthier by the the time that comes. So here’s the good news I am now mentally stronger, I have avoided all the bad foods (even when I have been seriously craving them) and I have pushed myself to exercise that little bit more every day.

I am noticing the difference still in my clothes rather than on the scales but you know what? That’s good enough for me, if I look better and I am happier in my body then who cares if it doesn’t show in a magic number on the scales. Plus the bf said to me the other day “you look amazing” well that’s good enough for me.

Hope your all doing well
Keep smiling
C xxxxx

Hi all,

Over the past few days I’ve lost my way in terms of eating. That is the bad news, i’ve been so run off my feet that I haven’t had time to eat! I’ve only had 1 meal a day for the past 3 days and it has been junk junk junk! I’ve had McD’s twice! Now the stress has eased I have to get back on it and have even more excuse. I am going to be on TV!! I sing in a choir called the Manchester Show Choir and we will be featuring on a tv talent show! Think that is all I am allowed to say for now but trust me it is massive! When it gets nearer I will let you all know more!

Being filmed in a month so it’s time to shift some weight!
Hope your all doing well!
C xxxx

Hi all,

Stood on the scales yesterday…not one measly pound gone and i have no idea why!!  I have lost inches though so I am taking that as a positive.

 Still sticking to my slimming world plan but trying to lower the calories again to see if that works. Also started swimming, been the past 2 days and have signed up to swim 5K (3miles) in April to raise money for Marie Curie Cancer Care which is wonderful charity that provide nurses to terminally ill cancer patients and from personal experience (they looked after my grandad) they make the end bearable.  So i am hoping to raise a lot of money for them. I have a training regime for the next 10 weeks which i am going to follow to ensure that not only do i complete this challenge but I will be lighter when i do.

 So in summary, I am disappointed but sometimes weight doesnt just drop off, it just drops off inches instead, and that is nothing to be ashamed of.

Keep smiling

C xxxx

Hi all,

Apologies that I’ve been quiet work has been pretty hectic and then I have had to try and get time off so that my choir can attend an audition next week so its been a bit hectic. I will tell more about the audition after the fact as I don’t want to jinx it. I’m also a little sad that its going to be on TV and I’m still huge but what can I do? I’m not going to lose 4 stone overnight but at least I can be as low as I can.

I have allowed myself a treat this weekend none the less. Friday night I am allowed to have what I want within reason so that i manage to stay on track. I was at my bf’s flat with some friends and they ordered take away, so I had a burger but left the fries. It’s bad I know but i avoided a pizza and it helped keep me sane!

I also joined the local pool again yesterday and I am off for a swim today and i hope to get back into the habit of swimming every day. Hopefully I will lose some extra poundage that way!

Hope your all moving towards your goals! (i’m getting weighed after my swim so will update progress shortly!)

C xxxxx

Hi all,

 I read somewhere that most diets fail during their first week of attempting them.  It’s the same for any addiction.  It’s the easy option to just quit.  I know that although it is most definately not true of the wonderful people of this site,  I am one of those people who is most likely to fail in the first 3 days.  I struggle with cravings and temptation and have very little will power.  I call these days my 3 day hump.   

I’ve made it 3 days, not cheated although in the supermarket today I craved chocolate and crisps and ice cream so bad but I managed to walk by without buying anything! Very very proud of myself.  I do have a weakness for bread so I bought some tortilla wraps instead so if I want a sandwich I can have a wrap which is healthier.   I bought some cereal bars to help cravings and some more apples as I loved baked apples the other night. Food choices today have been good, had porridge for breakfast, followed by 2 small potatoes and 28g cheese, had a rice cake and a beef crispbake for tea with a tortilla.  In total around 1200 calories so no wonder i still feel hungry.  Now just got to get through a few more hours before bed and the hump will be behind me.

I also got thinking about how i got to the size i am and how i lost my way.  A lot of my eating habits are related to emotional stress.  Last year was hard especially when i had a friend and her 5 yr old daughter living with me.  I didnt eat well and prob gained a stone although it is not their fault i made the decision to put it into my mouth and i am soley to blame.  If i am to truely win my battle with food then the first step is to accept responsibility. Only i can change this cycle and getting through these first 3 days is a real milestone for me so i’m a happy bunny!

Hope your all moving towards your goals

C xxxxx

Hi all,

Following a fellow bloggers idea i sat down with my bf last night and set myself a goal for every month. Not all of them relate to weight loss but in all I’m setting a doable goal of losing at least 28lbs before the end of the year. To some of you this may not seem like a lot but this is a minimum weight to have lost, I hope to have lost double that but need to be realistic. Also am placing my list of goals around the house so i keep seeing them to help push me towards them.

Today was fun, we had a day together as a staff before the kids come back in tomorrow working on the mission of our school. Was nice to catch up and talk to others about something other than poor behaviour. Was Good with my food choices….I had lots of veggies with a piece of meat and avoided the dessert and cookies. Also avoided chocolates that a friend brought with her.

Tonight I’ve had a small potato with a tiny piece of cheese. I feel hungry tonight though so think I may bake some apples to feel as though I’ve had something sweet.

1 more day before I’m over the hump…then detox can really begin!

C xxxx

It’s so easy to say that you are going to start afresh. I know i have said it about 400 times over the past 3 years and each time it has been a case of easier said than done. Not this time though. For once I am in the right frame of mind to make some positive changes and the first job yesterday was to cleanse my house. I started with all the junk food. I had the family over a lot over Christmas so I took my parents all the leftovers, including home made pies, cake, pudding, crisps etc. and to be fair my mum was really supportive and took it all off my hands. So my house is now a junk free zone. My bf is stick thin and he does eat junk (he’s trying to gain weight!) so he hid all his goodies in an area I cant reach on top of all the cabinets. I won’t stand on a chair because they’ll give way so its the perfect hiding place. Also given him my credit card to hide up there so I can sort out my money this year too.

A junk free house wasn’t enough for me though! Had to clean the whole house too so i popped on some music and danced my way through all the scrubbing and hoovering, dusting and scraping and worked up quite a sweat. When I was finished I stood in my kitchen and said to myself (whilst staring at one of those awful pics) that this was the start of a new life for me. No more putting things off just getting stuck in a getting things done.

Food wise I had a good day, rice for dinner and 2 slices of toast for lunch. Today i started off with a fruit selection and right now i’m just snacking on some chicken (plain no skin etc)

If i can get past the 3 day hump i will be fine so 2 more days to go!
Hope your all on track
Clare xxx

Hi all,
After many false starts and half arsed attempts to get back on track I am now in the right frame of mind to get going and finally lose all this weight for good. One of the things that was getting me down was reading through the old blogs, when I was doing well and they caused plenty of frustration so I deleted them all. I can’t change the past but looking back is not good for me right now, I need to look forward…

A few days ago I went to a party at a friends mum’s house where some very unflattering pictures were taken. I was disgusted, so in order to turn it into something positive i have printed out the pics and stuck them on all of the cupboards in my house where food is stored including the fridge and freezer so when i want to snack I will have an incentive to stop.

2011 is my year, its the year I will finally get where I want to be.

Happy new year to you all
C xxx