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It has been so long since i have wrote on here, in fact it’s the first time i have been on the site in over a year.  I got back with the bf and i’m happier than ever but i am struggling with the weight loss so have decided to come back here for some inspiration, i need to keep going.

I lost my gran on 28th Dec this year and i have been heartbroken about it, but i don’t want to let her down i want to make her proud.  So i need to get my finger out and get going…I know i can do this.

Clare x 

ok ok, i’m back in the land of the living after a hiatus that was originally intended on being brief but life caught me unawares.  I am doing well, maintained where i was at and now im starting again at pushing to go lower…need to lose around 28 more lbs before i can begin to be completely content.

My bf dumped me in nov and coming to terms with that has been hard…i opened up my heart and let him in but i am now feeling a lot better about all that…

Hope you are all well….i have missed you all

Speak soon

Keep smiling

Clare xxxxx

Hey all,

Well i know how disappointed everyone feels when they see a gain.  I have been up and down like a yo yo over the past 2 months so I definately have been there.  Last night though i havent been bad this week i gained 1.5lbs and i was crushed.  Then i sat and tried to work out why, i havent drunk anywhere near as much water as i did when i was working, i havent dont any real exercise and part of it is due to my contraceptive pill.

Excuses? I thought so to i went back and looked over the evidence, for the past 2 months i have been taking the pill (i am like super paranoid about getting pregnant).  In that time i have gone up and down each week.  When i used to be on the pill i put on a load of weight because i never felt like i was full so i am considering stopping taking it again at the end of this month.  However i am going to make an appointment with the docs today because i really dont want to get caught pregnant.  My bf has a 5 month old daughter and seeing him with her makes me kinda broody but i know im not ready to handle the responsibility of children.  We’ll see if the change in pill makes any difference whatsoever…thats the only thing i am really doing differently.

I think gains make us stronger in our new lifestyles.  We can’t all be superhuman, the weight loss does have to slow down and when we do gain we know that we will try even harder next week to ensure that we lose.  Sometimes the gain is the kick up the arse we need to get back on track….

Anyways best get calling the doctor….Have a great day and keep smiling all of you!

Clare xxx

Hi all,

man i love summer! Here in the UK we’ve had weeks of rain, parts of the country are flooded but now the sun is here!! YAY!!!

I’m still hard at it even though i have got 6 weeks off work! I spent the first one cleaning my sisters new flat, and this week looks like its going to be a week of bumming around!  I’m just enjoying the break and have realised how lucky i am to do what i do, its true there is no greater reward than teaching thats for sure and makes me realise just how much i was born to do this job.  In the last week of term i got promoted which is apparently unheard of in your first year of teaching so i am very very proud of myself.

I’ll be honest, the boosters and the comments people have been leaving have really kept me going through a yo yoing couple of weeks and i thank the people who left them for their support!

If anyone else fancies getting in touch feel free!

Keep smiling one and all, i wish nothing but the best for you

Clare xxxx

Hey there everyone

Hope this finds you all well, here i am again stuck at the same place i have been for a few weeks now, it goes up and down but i stay here in this rut that i cant seem to find the will power to get out of.

Thing is part of me is happy the way i am now and i know my bf thinks i look amazing and he knew me at my fattest so i know that it doesnt matter to him what i look like…so i eat junk with him and dont worry about being naughty!  Afterwards the guilt sets in as i know my family still think i am too fat and therefore they keep the pressure up.  Its quite hard really ive done so well that i now need to push myself that little bit further!!!

3 weeks until my holiday now i really need to do well these next few weeks, try and get my family to see from my side and just pray for the best on the scales

hope your all doing well

keep smiling

Clare x

Hey everyone,

well this saturday i turned 23, a lot lighter than when i started this year.  WOW this site looks good, so technical! I’m back but with the final weeks of teaching approaching it will be sporadic for a few more weeks! 

I have had a tough few weeks diet wise but i really enjoyed myself, ate what i wanted knowing that i CAN get back on track!!  Had 2 bags of crisps today but you know what i was feeling crappy and i will not deny myself. 

I am now so happy in my life that i guess my motivation has slipped a little but W is helping me get back on track.  I met his daughter on sunday for the first time, she is gorgeous and feel honoured that he trusts me enough to be around her, it must be as odd for him as it is for me.  I am going out to see him soon….he makes me smile so so much!

As you will see from the new profile pic, i went out dressed as lara croft and i have done some before and after pics for you guys so you can have a good laugh!!

Hope your all doing really really well

Keep smiling 

Clare xxxxx

hey all,

rn

just thought i would pop on and let you know why i am so rarely on this site at the moment….

rn

my life is pretty chaotic, going to get new responsibilities at work next school year and in preparation of this there has been a lot of work already put in on that but there is also lots more to do

rn

ive still been sticking to the diet and updating my weight there is just a huge deal of stress on my shoulders at the moment so when thats gone ill be back here more often!

rn

Speak to you all soon

rn

Clare x

Hello Dear friends…

rn

everything is different now…things change where others remain the same.   I am now a lot thinner than i can ever remember being, which never ceases to amaze me.

rn

I am also in a relationship territory i have never been in before.  I have a confession, i have never really had a ‘proper’ bf, there have been men in my life that have come and gone but not that i would actually refer to as a boyfriend. 

rn

W is amazing to me, everything a girl dreams of…he has a 3 month old daughter from a previous relationship but this just makes him even more desirable.., even if sometimes its a little too much for me to handle. 

rn

Life is being good to me, hoping that this trend continues! I have been so good diet wise as well so hoping for a 3lb weight loss so that i can get myself the new tomb raider game this week, need inspiration lol!!!

rn

Keep smiling

rn

Clare x

Hey there everybody!!

rn

Thanks for your comments yesterday made me smile so much to see them this morning.  I have this week off so have been trying to get myself well rested for the last half term of the year!

rn

On monday i will have been on plan for 5 months exactly.  5 months ago if you had said to me i would be over 3 stone lighter (42lbs) i would have laughed in your face.  Seriously i would have told you to get real and stop giving me more pipe dreams.  Yet here i am 3 sizes smaller way over the boundary of that and still going strong.

rn

I love this plan, i eat tonnes and i still lose weight, thats why red/green days work for me and for the rest of people in group.  I have cheated food wise for past few weeks been busy and when i eat with the Bf i do make bad choices which led to a maintain last night, but im happy with that, i deserved a gain.

rn

This week i have a target of 3 and have had a long chat with the Bf told him he has to not listen when i try to talk him round, but to support me 100% and tell me i can’t have it…its time for tough love now. 

rn

Keep smiling

rn

Clare xxx

Dear friends,

rn

Seems a long time since i wrote a blog but there has been so much going on in my life that i havent really had the time.  I have been working hard and still am loosing so thats a good sign but sometimes i do get naughty, esp when im around my boyfriend…told him that i have to stop that so i can look smoking hot for his and my birthday!

rn

I hope to speak to you all soon, i am still reading your blogs

rn

Keep smiling

rn

Clare xxxxx